What i’ve been creating..
nothing amazing. that’s for fucking sure.
I AM BURNT OUT.
I did it to myself truly. so no one to blame but little ol me, but I am trying to get to root of it. So, here are my thoughts:
I stopped creating for myself.
I had this conversation with a friend yesterday, about really just jumping into the things YOU want to do. instead of creating/working, to please the masses. Of course, in our businesses we have to give a little. We can’t have it our way all the time…. but we can have it our way like 87% of the time. So, over the past few months I started a couple art pieces and I pushed myself to finish them up last night. I think the feeling of worrying if people will like my work will never leave me, but I can just tell that voice that it doesn’t matter and it’s my world. My clients will find me regardless, they already have.
I filled my schedule.
Between scheduling several branding photoshoots, portraits, two births, creating art for my space at The Barrel House, working my other job and raising kids… and trying to have a personal life…. WHERE EVEN IS THE TIME TO BREATHE. So, I had to pull back from how much work I am doing. I am beginning to shift my business towards a direction that I think will better suit my life and my brain. and I can assssssure you, it won’t be doing 25 photoshoots a month. I cannot. the hustle is not for me. To the photogs who can, bless you. I’m glad the people have y’all cause you guys pumping out all the work seamlessly?!?! I could never be that amazing.
I focused way too hard on doing something original.
Sometimes you can just make boring, simple, artwork. Why not? I put a collage together the other day, it really made me happy and kept me from binge watching some tv show. Is it the coolest thing I’ve ever created? no lol. Is there a chance no one will like it? yes, but not everything I will do is going to be for others. Sometimes it gets to sit and resonate with me only <3 I was over here thinking: GO DO SOMETHING AMAZING JORDAN. IMPRESS EVERYONE. but wow. that’s so much pressure for what??
I’m sure there are so many other aspects that go into burn out. I have a million personal life things that I have to deal with. Not all of it is related to my business, but when I get to where I am now- I know I did this one to myself lol
don’t be like me.
go create freely.
xo,
Jordan